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11.11.99 They killed an old man last week, Ortiz, who's been on the "row" for over 20 years. Why do I tell you this? Well, a few days ago, before he was executed, I was put into a visitation cell next to him. We talked for a while. He was waiting to see the chaplain, but he was a "normal" human being. He was resigned to his date with the table, but there was still that human mark of hopefullness. I said: "I'll say a prayer for you, man." He said: "God Bless." as I was taken away. It was unreal because we spoke not about mundane prison topics, but of how to save his life. After 20 years on the row his living was a embarassment to the system, so
he was going to die - and I knew he knew.I felt so bad for him.
Surely 20 years had changed him...But the system ate him; it eats all..."
6.12.00 Well, today I weighed myself; 184-7 pounds. So I've now lost over 45 pounds in less than a year. Yeah, Xmas store is in five days, and we'll see what happens then. [...] Well, you called my Mom. If something happens to me, my Mom has instructions and addresses, so don't worry about me. I will shrink, but live...I hope.
17.12.00 [...] I am IN A BOX 13 YEARS AWAY! [...] Don't you realize that my social skills are out of line, because I've had no social contact in years?
12.1.01 I weigh 212 lbs - so the Xmas food helped me gain back 22 lbs, but it's over now. These cock suckers are back to their little games - feeding us scraps and bits! I've some snacks saved up to last about 2 months.
23.1.01 I've just filed two new petitions for decreasing my sentence, but you know, I don't have much faith in them. Is sad, but I've more faith in making enough money and buying a commutation, than I do of getting justice. It's a sad fact, but MONEY TALKS, bullshit walks. [...] I'm finishing the final draft of Process Of Illumination and hope to have this done by the end of February, at the latest. It's a bitch, with all these moves. They're welding plates on our doors so we cannot pass stuff back and forth to our neighbors. So we're put into smaller boxes, where we sit for a whole day, while they work to child-proof our cells with welders and torches. Stupido! I'm glad I've no legal deadlines to meet as of yet!
5.2.01 I got shook down yesterday and some little tramp - O. Medley - tried, did write me up for stupid shit I can't help. I got 30 days suspended sentence, but if she wants to fuck me all she's gotta do is write me up and I lose power for 60 days! [...] I wish I could make a tape, but I'd have to borrow more stamps, and I'm already in the hole! With all my legal mail and international mail, it gets expensive.
6.2.01 Today I've worked hard. Working on legal and on the literature. I've to speak with the enemy tomorrow, or Thursday, about the two civil rights cases. I'm also waiting on the answer to my Petition's for re-sentencing. Ach! Today they hit me for $260 dollars! For my appeals! So I'll have to have more money taken out of my account! [...] Don't worry, ho fame adesso, ma va bene, I will survive.
23.2.01 Well, here's the bad news for me:
1) CR88-10855 (26 years Conspiracy To Commit Kidnapping/Robbery) was denied permission to appeal. This is the case that I'm COMPLETELY INNOCENT! (Also the other cases, but here Karl wasn't present either. E.N.). However a new law has just passed, and if I can find MICHAEL K. BARBER (African-American/ex-Army/lived in Arizona in 1988) and ask him to sign an affidavit, basically elucidating what he meant about "pretending to go along," then I could file a petition. The problem is finding him. How do we find him?
2) The Supreme Court of the United States did not want to look at my petition for Writ of Certoriari, which was about my continuing existence in solitary confinement. It's not that of a big deal, because I'm pursuing a more direct case in the district court. We'll see. I've already filed a 2nd RULE 32 petition in the Superior Court of Arizona, in CR88-10855, and CR88-10924, to reduce the sentences due to a change in the law that makes illegal the procedures under which I was sentenced.
5.3.01 Medley is a female guard who sees me and think I should talk to her, but I won't give her the attention she craves, so she wrote me up and sucked the Disciplinary Officer's cock so he would find me guilty for something I wasn't guilty for. The D.O. suspended it - he knew it was bullshit! (Nobody could extort me! Come on!) Food is gone. Find Michael K. Barber!
25.3.01 Saturday: It's night - I only know this because they've got control of the sun. I lay here in my bunk, looking at...wandering if...[...]
Sunday: Sorry you can barely understand this scribble of mine! But my fingers are pained. I'm giving my type-writer a rest this week-end. I need you to find - help find - a publisher for my novels, who prints, ship, on demand...!
Oh, I wrote that attorney address down because he is the type of clemency attorney I need to hire. Cibo è qui al momento! [...] Not much, but what there was , was good. [...]
I really enjoyed the pictures; that little room, the window with the greenery outside, the pictures hanging on the wall, the blue walls, the books on the dresser - it's been so long since I've even seen a bed and real blankets! I wonder if it is quiet? Is it noisy? [...] What are the smell? Could I live in such a free place - no locked doors, or would I float away, or be afraid to venture into the stream of life? And with my courage will my body follow? Will my stomach stay quiet as I will my feet onward? Will palms stay dry as I try? Will I be able to stop the shakes - the live wire that I've always clung to, that always vibrates the muscles beneath my flesh?
2.4.01 [...] This typewriter and my recorder are getting old - they ARE old - and not working well. I need to get them replaced, but the new deputy warden says: "GET A COURT ORDER." even though they assisted in messing my writing hand up, they insist that I prove it, and get a court order. Just to hassle me.
29.4.01 As you can see my left margine of my typewriter is fucked up, and I'm trying to get permission for a new typewriter. But I'll have to go through the bureaucracy and bullshit. Already the deputy warden says I should "write less". A smart ass response to my serious problem. I told him: "Ho bisogno riparare il mio typewriter and the tape recorder." That was his response.
[...] I'm very low key. Just think if were very high strung, I'd be crazy by now in this place. All sorts of worries, threats, and mental games that I must think out before acting out, or else I might be dead.
I can't wait to see you, though I doubt you'll be very impressed with the ghost named Karl.
I just read the "secret" psychological evalutation: I'm a suicidal man of honor, who is creatively inclined and takes his responsibilities more serious than most people. That's basically what it says. It says I operate at "high levels of intelligence". All this from a drive-by psychological evalutation in 1990. Stupid. But I'm glad they think this, as it may assist me in the future.
Name di "executive clemency board members" dal 1996 [...] Question: are any of these persons in private practice here in Arizona, or in the neighboring states? [...] We don't want to make contact until we have the money, but we do need to target who is amenable to representing my case to the clemency board.
A judge in the US District Court has ruled that this indefinite confinement is unconstitutional, and even now final orders are being made that will change my situation. No I don't know if it will be changed by the time you visit, for justice is slow, but wouldn't that be wonderful if I were moved to a medium security unit and we could have contact visits. Ah, but such thoughts are fantasy. I doubt it would happen that soon. Even still the transfer of so many men onto the open yard after many years in the solitary cells will surely lead to some "adjustment" problems. People may even die. But it is the environment and emotional state created by ADOC. Despite the court'' ruling, ADOC will try to buck (do everything it can, not to do what they're supposed to), and stall any type of judgment. We'll see.
I've also read some transcripts from TERRY STEWART and other top level prisoncrats. They stated, under oath, that they don't care whether or not these hells create psychological problems. There's a rumor that even if the judicial branch tell ADOC they must release me, that ADOC won't. They'll be breaking the law then, but they won't be punished.
[...] They have charged $66 dollars for speaking to Daniela for 15 minutes, even though I told them COLLECT CALL. But 66 dollars is outrageous! I've filed a grievance, but untill then I shall have no money on my books which means no stamps or ribbon. So I'll have to conserve until I can pay this debt off. And it was their fault! Stupids, is what they are!
5.5.01 I expect the pigs to be coming soon. Probably tomorrow, or next week. They've taken a convict I knew, K.B., to the hole, because he "threataned" a pig. I don't know how one can threaten from behind this steel plate; like a mouse waving his fist at a lion: "I'll kill you!" Yeah? How?
Georgia just unloaded their guilty state prison consciences; they cruelly executed men sometimes taking 30 minutes to kill a man. ABS aired the tapes; horrible, like ADOC's gas chamber - stupid pigs say: "Why isn't he dying? He's still breathing", the cruel fuckers said. No humanity! [...]
It's possible that the prisoncrats will have to open up this solitary can, so I'am increasing my work out schedule, just in case. I will have to be ready for combat on the open yards - because there are many grievances and...to be attended to. On the yard after so long in a place - in a hole - where people have let their jibs (mouth) run loose and disrespect those they wouldn't otherwise dare disrespect on an open yard, those willl have to be dealt with. Races are at war, people get hit, shit happens, and ADOC will say: "Look, look, they're killers! They're dangerous!" and they'll be right; what dog in a cage, prodded and starved and humiliated and denied all contact would not bite or stumble crazily? What human wouldn't extract some measures of comeuppance - not many here in prison. No matter my peaceful nature, and my respected counsel, there are these who just don't care, or want to do their own thing. So I must be prepared for defense, for battle, for survival in the jungle. That's the code; that's my life until my friends free me, or I do!
This is my stress, this is my need - they go together. For if I am kept in the hole my sanity will erode; I need contact, sun, a kiss at visit and a hug, food, etc. For this I must take the risks, battle, or die. This is prison.
16.5.01 Yesterday night I received an unexpected call from Karl. Unexpected cause usually we fix a date by mail before. This time instead, being his parents on vacation, he couldn't advise me. Karl has had the usual problems; they shook down his cell, and took away his works in progress' latest galleys, and the new ribbons for his typewriter. They took away even his appeals' documents, so he had to photocopy all again spending a lot of his few money.
Daniela
30.5.01 The prison guards have been shaking down every fucking day this last week so it's been very stressful! But I stay semi-prepared!
11.6.01 This last week has been one long shake-down.They x-rayed my head, my nut sacks, and my feet! They took all my property - x-rayed that - then brought it back (Not everything, see call to Daniela of the 16th of May. E.N.). All week they didn't feed us hot food, and what we got was cold sack lunches. I now am under 200 pounds! Going down! [...] These idiots took all my new typing ribbons and left me the old ones! Cretini! I don't understand how they couldn't tell the difference.
Well, they have begun giving me this new allergy medication, but it's put me in a weird mood, a bad mood. I feel angry. I'm usually happy, creative, but I feel blocked. I stopped taking it to see if that was what it was, and that's what it was. But the water was making me hitch, and burn, so I had to resume taking it for now (The continuous lack of sun made Karl's skin very white so he developed this allergy. E.N.). Maybe it's the wrong allergy medication, or I am a guinea pig?
Well, they killed McVeigh, and they were pissed because he wouldn't say he was sorry, or admit he was wrong. But they don't understand that he looked at it as war, and war is hell. They kept trying to presume, or seek McVeigh apology, but they didn't realize that he wasn't sorry. He didn't care what they thought. I keep hearing all these suppositions, but it's all media bullshit. What the man did was wrong, but his ideals have some merit. He just chose the violent route, instead of the peaceful route. Violence is easy, diplomacy and peace is hard. Stupid people resort to violence, for what does it take but a hand to lift a stone and throw, while peace requires speech, understanding, and tolerances.
Enough. You know Sgt. Olson in property tried to send me my stereo back, which they said was repaired. But it was still fucked up. They wanted me to sign for it so they could claim I broke it, instead of allowing me to replace/repair it. Can you believe that dirty trick? [...] Without music I find it difficult to write. Why? Maybe it's the lack of music and not the medication? Maybe all these fucking voices and insanities and hateful metaphors and racist talk impress upon me some familiarity that I can no longer block out by turning up the music. Maybe I will go crazy, like everything around me. I feel it contagious. I hope it's the allergy medication.
1.7.01 Cari amici,
6 Month update.
JANUARY - FEBRUARY: I gained back about 30 punds, after having lost about 40-45, during the Christmas period, when I was allowed to purchase food from the store for 4 weeks. (If I have the money I may spend 106 dollars for 4 weeks, in Jan./Dec.)
LEGAL SITUATION: nothing has been resolved in the criminal matters, and the civil human rights lawsuits are only now (June 01) getting going. I am in need of COPY ASSISTANCE or MONEY FOR COPIES, as I have lost a valuable copy clerk (who used to do my copies for free) in Phoenix, due to her moving away. KNOW anyone in the State, please refer them to me, or I to them.
In the cases I have filed NEW PETITIONS for reducing my sentences on the basis of their being illegal. In the most recent 2nd Degree Homicide case, I have filed a Petition for Writ of Habeas Corpus, to return for a mitigation and resentencing hearing, due to the fact that my TWO attorneys "forgot to call" my witnesses so they could speak in my behalf, forgot to give the judge the petitions in my behalf, told the prosecutor's Presentence Adult Probation Department Officer, who makes out the report and reccomendation, which is relied upon heavily by the judge, that my defence was premeditated homicide in self-defence. An outrageius lie, that the judge then considered when sentencing me, as well as other misinformation.
A new avenue of relief, which wouldn't cost as much as hiring 2-3 attorneys for each case, has arisen: commutation. It will cost anywhere from 5 thousand to 15 thousand (U.S.), and may have to be done twice, but still, it would be cheaper and much quicker. Because of the "political" and "monetary" stigmatization I am under, we must hire someone who has influence with the Arizona governor, or with the Executive Clemency Board of Arizona itself.
It is July 1, 2001, as I write this "update"; Blaine Marshall, the Deputy Warden at SMU II has lied to my Mother and Me, and is not authorizing the replacement of my tape recorder, EVEN WHEN one of his own officers came into m cell, dropped a box on it, and broke it. (And as you may or may not know, they've messed up my hands, and I have bone flecks in my writing hand thumb/index finger, in addition to having pre-carpal tunnel syndrome, so I NEED my tape recorder to speak with friends and family/and to hear them as well.) And you may write DEPUTY WARDEN B. MARSHALL, or fax, or flood his office with calls*.
I have lost all my weight, and am around 190 lbs and shrinking. I am beginning a new workout: the "NAVY SEAL BUDS WORKOUT", but because I only receive around 1800 calories a day, I am not sure I will have the strength to do both it, write, and my legal work. The only way I am able to keep some muscle weight on was because I stopped working out 5 times a week and only worked out 2 times (Before he used to work out 3 times a week out of his cell, and 2 inside. E.N.). But I notice that I am losing muscle from my legs and arms, and other major areas, and must try something. Someone has sent me this book, and I'll just keep "rolling - rolling - rolling..."
NOVELS: I have completed and mailed out SEVERAL NOVELS THIS YEAR, which should be available very soon. I am not happy with the editing phases/errors at Xlibris, but I am trapped because of my need to have a viable product on sale. We need to raise more money, I need to have product on sale. Please check out xlibris.com and buy a couple copies of my novel BETRAYAL OF INNOCENCE, and THE GRINDER. There will be more books. SOULMATE, RAIF OF EIRE, PROJECT EVERYTHING, PROCESS OF ILLUMINATION and more, soon to come.
POETRY: an English/Italian version of FIVE THINGS has just been published through Multimage, in two volumes. Marzia has added more to these poems and seen things I had not seen, or that I'd forgotten. What I am saying is that I, usually a critic of my own work, enjoyed many of my own poems. I'm a Virgo, whatever that means! (Sorrisi) Please pick up some copies as gifts, or for yourself, via Multimage site, either as hard copy or e-book. Also, if your corporation would like to purchase bulk rate copies, as gifts, of FIVE THINGS (CINQUE COSE) or IL TRITACARNE (THE GRINDER), contact Olivier Turquet, or Daniela Annetta, or place an order calling: +39/055/583184. My many thanks for your assistance.
THEATRE: I have written a THEATRICAL MANUSCRIPT entitled, UNBECOMIN (SCONVENIENTE) which shows the unbecoming aspects of humans within the American "Just-Us" (Justice) system and the prisons. Although fiction, it is graphic and real, and portrays much of life in prison through a condensed play/film (I've mixed the applications). ANYONE interested, contact Daniela Annetta at the above e-mail address, or me directly. (Unbecoming is also the title of one of Karl's latest books, and it's the follow-up of The Grinder. It's being translated and is already highly recommended. E.N.)
ME: because I have nothing to listen to, I am going crazy with all this maniacal loudness. They x-rayed my nuts, my property, my head, and even my toes, in June. I'm not sure what for? I got shook down last night again. Not sure why? I am trying to keep sane, and those of you who help me, I love you for your kindness, and hope to soon be speaking with you in person. Right now it is imperative that money be raised to hire the commutation specialist. Please keep that in mind. Again, my dear friends, thank you. Maybe we can stop the killing together...KLG
* Editor's note: if asked, Blaine H. Marshall, Eyman's Deputy Warden, and Warden Jeff Hood, reply that: "Inmates sentenced to the Department Of Corrections are not allowed to have a recording device as personal property. This policy is in effect for security reasons.[...] Inmate Guillen may purchase a walkman." Gross lie to silence us, cause we know that actually the inmates are allowed to keep a recorder, and if an officer breaks it, they may replace it. We of the committee would like you to support Karl in his claim, not so essential as others, yet very important to him. Here you can download the petition's text, and here below are the addresses where sending it:
| Warden
Jeff Hood ASPC - Eyman 4374 East Butte Avenue Florence, AZ85232 USA Ph: 001/520/868/0201 ext.6600 Fax: 001/520/868/0276 E-mail: JHOOD@adc.state.az.us |
Warden
Jeff Hood and/or Dep.Warden Blaine H. Marshall ASPC - Eyman P.O.Box 3500 Florence, AZ85232 - 3500 USA Ph: 001/520/868/0201 ext.6600 Fax: 001/520/868/0276 |
4.7.01 Karl wrote me that it's not his fault if he gets no mail, it's that they don't give it to him, or they give it with great delay - besides they broke his recorder and he can't hear either music or our voices, and that's quite hurting to him. His mother argued with the guards who should replace the recorder, but don't do it, and things will go on for too long also because they don't allow her to buy a new one. As to the confusion Karl makes, I had this impression too, and I think he's getting worse. On the other hand he's in a place where the main goal is that of getting people crazy, or totally subdueing them. Even our attempts to help him with the legals cross with our inability in clearly understanding his instances, and at this point maybe it's not just a fault of us, or a lack of competence from us. Karl is getting more and more fragile day by day, and truly our friendship is what keep him more alive, and give him strength and hope to hang on. And he often repeats that. [...] Sometimes I feel heavy this commitment I took, most of all now that he uses to call me and we have a straighter relationship...But I know that inside him there's still the Karl of a couple of years ago who did give me so much strength and courage. I know that to find the money for an attorney is kind of a hopeless deed, but it's his only hope, and I can't undeceive him that we'll manage to do it. I don't want to leave my hopes, luckily we're a lot loving him...
Daniela
17.7.01 Thanks for sending money for a tape player - it will be used to file the lawsuit if the pigs continue to not allow me to replace it (Currently Karl is just allowed to buy a walkman, that's very cheaper, so the saved money can be used for the lawsuit. E.N.). As of today they say: "You cannot prove that the tape deck wasn't broken before the prison official broke it." Incredible! But it's how these ADOC officials are. I will need you to write a letter stating the last dates I sent you a talk tape, to prove the tape recorder DID work! I may have to file a lawsuite! [...] Oooo, I had 5 bites of spaghetti for dinner - sento Italiano! :-)
16.9.01 [...] I've not received the walkman, but I'm hopeful for this week. [...] The court has ordered an inmate to be released to an open yard. He has the same type of case as mine (Civil-Human Rights)! I hope that I get out, but will be reimbursered for everything (the inmate? E. N.), and more! But it's a toss up!! Io spero! [...] This week has been terrible, so many dead (He's mentioning the terroristic attack in USA on the 11th Sept. E.N.). The mail will be even slower after this, but that may be the cost of freedom? I don't know. What does Italy think of this? [...] Know that I'm working hard, and will continue to take heart with friends such as you by my side. Thanks. Sorrisi. Con un bacio e un abbraccio. KLG
P.S.The "guards" - a guard - put me on report for having "something metal" in my mattress! I think it's a set up, because I, and anyone with a brain, never put anything in a mattress. I believe, like when they tried to get me in 97-98 for the lawsuit, they're trying again. This was as a result of a major shake-down on Wednesday-Thurday (September 12-13). So we'll see what happens this week!
23.9.01 Sì, ho ricevuto il manoscritto The Grinder and Betrayal Of Innocence. They're all done! I sent Xlibris my approval.
I still have no music or walkman! Niente! I cannot write with all this fucking NOISE, even just conversations! I've started a book, but it sucks. I'm not in rhythm with me. Spero avrò una cassetta, spero presto.
Ah, war, what is it good for! It's war where we are going! Maybe me too, for I have training in combat skills.
Yes, we have had tragedy here, but it is yet to be seen how America will handle it: badly or greatly. I believe, should we go to war, it will not solve the problem. Yet it angers me to see Palestinians, Pakistanis, and other human beings celebrating the horrible deaths of so many innocents, of even their own. It's almost as if their fanaticism has overidden their humanism? I pray, and hope, that we don't begin a vicious cycle which will further alienate "normal" Muslims, or lead to nuclear war. It is an enigma. Close our freedom, or eradicate an enemy that will include the deaths of many innocents. That may not be possible to completely eradicate.
FROM ONE TO THOUSANDS
I think
that just few people in these latest days didn't asked themselves why, didn't
feel indignation, dismay, powerlessness, anger, and so on. The hot summer
of the "new" millennium's first year has extremely coldly reminded
us of how many outmoded ideas are in these new times...Even as we were still
morally recovering from the pain of Genoa, out of the blue the death has come
down from the sky. The suicide, the insane fit of whom replies to hate with
hate, of whom keeps on not understanding that "two wrongs don't make
one reason". So the "information systems" has begun to speculate,
as it happened after the State murder that killed Carlo Giuliani, saying that
in the New York's sky was borning what Bush has called "the new millennium's
first war". Today, after about a week, all seems still pending, but we
can imagine the sad consequences after that someone has dared annihilate the
"Big Brother". The chase is open, therefore we must unearth a guilty...never
mind if really guilty, we just need a potential guilty, someone (better if
Islamic, anyway someone different) to crush in the name of justice, of our
protection, of democracy, in the name of the fight against terrorism, and
why not, of "freedom". In the meanwhile, waiting for the Great Power
to define the details of the "surgical bombing" (be it clear, just
to ransom the innocent victims' blood), the fraticidal war has just begun
under the form of shameful statements, and inhuman behaviours! After the tragedy
in USA I myself heard a colleague of mine addressing the head-nurse, and asking
him if he could avoid assisting "that dog" simply cause his brown
complexion, and his accent revealed his Arabian origin! That makes me sick!
I feel sick for the bombastic reporter mixing the human tragedy with Wall
Street's business! I feel sick when one tries to justify a demonstrator's
brutal murder with the self-defence, or when some say that Carlo Giuliani
was killed by a stone thrown by other demonstrators...What a awful thing is
to find out that people celebrate the Twin Towers' crash, as if there were
no difference between things and persons. I myself, being aware of the difference
between things and persons, am very sad for the thousands of dead in New York,
without feeling any sorry for the Towers' crash symbol of the American offended
power, because if it's true that violence must always be banned in any manner,
it's also true that America and its allies' shameless autarchy must be deemed
as a dangerous seed from which there has grown, with no doubt, rage and a
wild, therefore unjustified even if motivated, revenge. Today more than ever
I think it's necessary to stand by peace rejecting at all costs either violence
or behaviours stirring it up.
Mariano De Mattia: lambarena@hotmail.com
- Brescia 27.9.01
1.11.01 I weigh 183 lbs with the chains - and they took blood last week too. I should be healthy. I had to go to the dentist, a two day hell with a toothache was the cause! Now I'm better. My days are busy now with the new novel, legal work, and some drawings. I am the prison legal advisor as well, so I do keep busy, plus the bullshit in here.
All was fucked up, but now "we" the west - are being assholes, bombing caves and poors. Close them off, let them rule each other, terrorize themselves. I guess that's not right either...maybe it will work out? After many deaths and stupidity and inhumanity!
The weather's nice, but I live in a chill. They have turned up the coolers, but it's better than the heat. There's no word in my cases, but who knows. Idiots with anthrax have slowed down the mail so all must be patient. [...] I don't know what's up with a new weapon's charge. A disciplinary ticket where they tried to say a needle that was broken was in my mattress. It's been hidden there for years. Now they say: you're "manufacturing" weapons - PAZZO! It's been 2 months, so I don't know if it was dismissed, or what? If they wait and take me to ADOC Kangaroo Court they may try to stop me from buying Xmas store. I hope it was dismissed!
Okay my dear friends - my hand is going to shit! I love you and thank you for being there.
Smile, your Karl
13.11.01 I'm SHRINKING! 175 lbs. Christmas comes and I should have enough money to buy food for 4 weeks. We'll see.
I'm writing the new novel, but fuck, I'm so busy trying to get out. Maybe our efforts, and your hard work, will begin to earn money in time to help. All we can do is continue forward! I hope to finish the new novel by April-May, but I don't know where it will lead me.
Another plane (the one crashed on Manhattan in October. E.N.) - 265 humans died. So sad. Why do they have to die? What part of a "Master Plan" do they fill? I will ask God this someday - were all 265 somehow deserving of this fate? It sucks!! Such is life!
We have asshole guards - John Sfroak - threatening to place us on report (disciplinary) so as to deprive us of Christmas store purchase. [...] 4 weeks till Xmas store. I can't wait! I'm very hungry now - odd, but the skinnier I get the hungrier I am - I thought it was supposed to be the other way around? Oh well - such is this hell!
I endure some more turmoil lately, and have distanced myself from all but one of the 10 other inmates in here. I learned many things about these person while I did not have head phones. And so, I can get more work done. It's not a dangerous distance, but a working one. Don't fret! It works for me, and I'm getting more done.
2.12.01 It has gotten cold lately, and because we're not issued cold weather clothes (I have only 1 sweat shirt) I do not bother to go out into the recreation room. Molto freddo! I can't afford to get sick, since I'm so thin now. My ass has stretch marks! That's how thin I've gotten! [...] About the "needle" ticket - the Coordinator, Co Metz, said for me to have my people send money, so this implies that I will be able to go to the store. Vedremo!? But the guard is a real snake! Who knows.
15-16.12.01 I'm itching and burning after I drink, or use ANY water in here. I don't know why. I know that about three years ago it began here in SMU II. I think lack of sun has caused my skin to become hypersensitive to the water and my secretions/sweating it out. [...] Right now I'm going crazy! No allergy meds - I'm burning, itching, Ach! Everywhere! I must drink water though! I've been out for 10 days and counting. Tomorrow I'll see my parents so I hope I'm better [...] Well, I had a good visit except that I wanted to die from itching so badly. Still no medications! No there's nothing you can do now. I'll either have my pills or I'll be dead or crazy! I will not drink or eat if it gets so bad. [...] My whole body's on fire! I hope I get the allergy pills today! I hope! I hope! I hope!
19.12.01 Yes, suicide is a "way out" of here, but it is the coward way, unless you/I were dying for someone other than myself. Per esempi, if I were to give my life, it would have to be for anothers. Not just for me; "Oh, I can't take it, I want to kill myself..." Fuck that. That is the cowards way out. When I was in the Army Jail they had me on suicide watch, because they thought I was NUTS (pazzo). I was only tired of their shit. These two guards would come back to the hole (worse than this) and forcefully strip me naked
 Karl in army - 1986 |
One caucasian guard and one black guard. The same two assholes. They were pissed because I escaped from the Korean prison; 1st ever. They wanted to know: "HOW'D YOU FUCKING GET OUT! WHO LET YOU OUT!" I never told them, so every day for a month I would wait in the corner, shivering, hungry, waiting for these pricks. I would have killed them if I could, I believe, back then. I would have committed suicide then, if suicide was in me, but I don't like to give up. After a month I was down to only boxers. My other clothes were so badly torn they took them away, and laughed, because now they said it would be "Quicker, cuz he's only got boxers on..." I few times I won, but only once or twice during the month. When I say, I "won", I mean I bloodied a lip, or slipped past them. I was very skinny back then. 140 pounds or so.
You speak about torture, other people do, but they don't know what the fuck they're talking about. Try being raped every day, wondering if one of these MPs would do more than put his boot on my cock, or on my ass.
I remember being on my stomach, naked, the cold cement scratching the head of my penis, while one man sat on my thighs, and the other on my back, choking me, yelling at me: "Calm down Querl! Calm down or I'll put you out!" and though I couldn't breath, I was scared that I would be fucked in the ass MORE than I was of going unconscious! CAN YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?
I guess during those times I may have actually contemplated suicide after a week of torture; but I soon become accostumed to the beatings, the sensation of "rape", the cold water and lonely nights in another land. It was just something I had to endure. And I never told them how I escaped. But that fat rat bastard did (no wonder he was never done like me. Little bitch!).
Very odd that you ask me about suicide, because I tell my Mom that if they EVER say. "Karl committed suicide" it is a murder, and they (ADOC) have killed me with intent.
Yes I know the army torture was not placed into The Grinder, but I'd rather forget it. I'm still trying to forgive those two fucking MPs.
I'm sure they were under orders...
31.3.02 ADOC informed me that I am not eligible to have my sentence reduced by the clemency board. This means that I must obtain a new sentence in the courts. What does the above paragraph mean: It means that a major reason for continuing to publish novels on the internet is gone! I wanted to be able to show the Board that I had several published novels. No it doesn't matter, unless thay make money for an attorney. We'll do that: now we'll publish my old books on the net. We won't publish new books for now. I'll look for an editorial agent. Ok? What do you think?
I'm not bad, yet not even good! My back is killing me! My hand is bad too, and they want to take my tapewriter! I've asked three different Courts for permission to retain my typewriter, and my tape recorder. Because I've no attorney for my needs.
[...] A few people who've just read IL TRITACARNE e CINQUE COSE. They're trying to start a promo campaign for my Italian books. We'll see. I also got a friend working at the University, she's asking a professor of Italian Literature if CINQUE COSE can be of some help for the Italian classes.
Okay my dearest! Hai un buon giorno. Tell Hi
tutti mi amici. Smiles con baci ed abbracci. KLG
I flush the water,
put my cock back into its case...
Just another day...
28.6.02 Good news! My civil case regarding the typewriter & tape recorder & college - well I won a judgement!
The Judge ruled/granted me summary judgement. This allows me to have a tape recorder & typewriter, plus to complete my college degree! Also (though later) they will have to compensate me! This is my first civil victory and I am so happy - all I need now is enough cash to buy a new stereo/recorder and a good typewriter. I wish I had a minicomputer, with a mail box, hidden in my typewriter. But i have nobody helping me for that. I'm happy, but it's not sure yet cause I must have the papers by the court saying: "Karl may have a typewriter...and a recorder..." Soon! Then you can hear my voice a little better! :-)
11. 7.02
After a shakedown!
Ciao a tutti,
hope you all are well. Me? Life is shit!
The fucking Court (Pinal County) said I won the right to get a new typewriter
and tape recorder. 8 days later says no, it was a mistake! :-( I was so upset,
and sad! Now I must wait and go to the fed court (?) I don't care about any
of it, but I hate having to wait. (damn system!) Please, if you have any of
my old tapes, hang on to them because I may need proof to use at trial.
Winslow - fuck! The way the Courts are stalling! I don't know! I'm even waiting
for the Judge to make a ruling, but I'm afraid, after this last bullshit!
I'm about ready to just say fuck'em all! But really, I'm just waiting on the
Judge and that's it!
Well, my dear friends, I'm in a fool mood, feeling kicked & bruised &
feeling fucked, but I send you a smile and a big kiss!
But now I must go back into my damn humid hell before I upset people.
Love You Karl
So far we collected 283 signatures, and we'll send the petition within a few days. But sadly Karl's situation is getting more and more serious; his appeals are systematically denied, they seized his typewriter, quite a troubling thing to Karl who's no longer able to write by hand since they broke his right hand years ago. On top of that he was also written up and put on restriction, he's no longer able to make collect call to Italy, and won't be allowed to buy food at the Xmas store. He's on restriction because "he's on Internet", because our Committee made this site for him. It seems all started from a new Arizona bill banning web sites against the death penalty (read the article of the 23.7.02 at http://punto-informatico.it/p.asp?i=41027 - you can download the English translation here) In our case, since we're not American citizens, they cannot prevent us from keeping our site, so they retaliate against Karl increasing their daily abuse. Karl said he won't bow to their petty threats, and asked us not to give up too, and we're decided not to give up, yet we don't know what the future has in store for us. We are worried about Karl, and we're afraid he will not even allowed to have special visits from Italy, so we'll no longer allowed to visit him either. We'll start a protest campaign. We already sent letters to the Deputy Warden Marshall, and to the officials who wrote him up (download the letter here). We also made a new petition to the ADOC Director Terry Stewart that you can download here. Director Stewart's address (plus other useful addresses) is here.
We'll keep you updated about Karl's situation through this site.
Now let's pass onto Karl's, and some Committee members' letters.
29.8.02 Hi
all,
Karl called me up yesterday. He says hello everybody and sends you his love.
His fingers are wounded and bleeding cause he's trying to fix his typewriter
with no tool. The problem looks serious, yet he hope to make it work again,
so he will write another ad to promote his books. As to the legal issues,
Judge McGuire have to decide for a rehearing of his sentence, or a new trial
for the murder case. As to other cases, the federal court have to decide for
a reduction of the sentences. If all works, and if he can hire an attorney,
he could be released within 2 or 3 years. As soon as we start talking about
legals they drop the line so I don't know anything else, not even if the affidavit
for his recorder went well.
Onre kiss for you all,
Daniela
15.9.02 Me, honestly, my hull
is taking on sea water. I feel heavy, though I grow skinny.Every turn I take
leads to a high wall. I try. I study. I work harder. I pray! I make deals
with God! I become frightened of curses. Maybe someone has put a spell on
my life? And what it all boils down to is this: something wants me in prison,
and to suffer while so staying. My only pleasure is friend like you! My only
light is the end product. My only hope is a light burning in a dim window
that I cannot yet reach...
I guess some friends are having a "Manifestation" for human rights
this December, and will sell my stuff? I'm not sure...?
My typewriter, I think it got a soul cause it's keeping on working. (It broke
a week or so ago, and I thought it was gone! The next day I got an idea, and
I fixed it with strings and knows! si! E vero!) When I release this typewriter
I asked my mom to take pictures of how I kept it going! A miracle!
Okay my dear friends, have a great day! Be well, and have fun! Best wishes
and a hug. KLG
24.9.02 Yeah, I
fixed my typewriter - please don't you ask me anything! I was so afraid, that
time was like death. I did it to the best, even the string I made. But never
mind, because on 11 October they will take it! [...]
Otherwise, everything is the fucking same! Thank you for doing the new poems.
I have sent the new theatrical play to Billie (Karl's mom. T's.note), but
it needs to be retyped badly. This typewriter cannot do a finished product
anymore!
Well, I await release - if it ever comes. You await...my friends? [...] KLG
8.10.02 An ADOC (SSU) officer,
Garcia has placed me on disciplinary violation for "Being on the Internet";
a Sgt. Lamas (SSU) has intiated this, Garcia said: This is probably on behalf
of Deputy Warden Blaine Marshall. So they will punish me for www.umanisti.it,
for www.prisonpenpals, for Xlibris etc.etc. Fuck them. But I need you to do
something about this; start a campaign
of letter writing to these "characters" above. (it is very odd because
they have known all of this since 2000! And now, just before Christmas store,
they want to put me on restriction so I may not buy food? etc? They are overcharging
Daniela & Marzia. ($40 per collect call) [...] It is to retaliate for
helping with human rights suit, and for appealing my criminal cases.
The officers are:
SSU Officer Garcia at SMU II
SSU Sergeant Lamas at SMU II
Deputy Warden Blaine Marshall at SMU II
ASPC Eyman Complex -SMU II P.O.Box. 3400
Florence, AZ85232 USA
[...] Do anything you deem appropriate for this vipers actions. Do not take
off anything. That is your right to do so, and I will not bow to their petty
threats.
9.10.02 Hi
all,
Gabriella from Genoa organized, along with Amnesty, a week long exhibition
of drawings of an inmate, friend of hers that will open on the 5th of December
at the prestigious Berio Library in Genoa. There also be a space for Karl's
drawings. My sister, living in Genoa, got into touch with Gabriella, and agreed
to take part in the exhibition. It's possible to show Karl's drawings and
poems, and sell his books. She will let us know how much space we'll have,
if we're allowed to make a speech, etc. The library will look after the promotion,
and send the invitations, it's a precious chance. [...]
Karl wrote, he keeps on writing in Italian and he's not always clear. They're
supposed to be taking his typewriterto on 11 October. he's still waiting for
his appeal. As to the affidavit,, Marzia, Ilaria, and I sent, it was right
but they said it doesn't count because not released before a judge or an authorized
official in Italy.
Legal issues. Murder: the appeal is at the federal court for the habeas corpus,
he's waiting for a decision for the commutation of the sentence. As to the
other cases he's waiting for the court to decide, then he'll send a petition.
Many changes occured in the laws affecting his legal cases, but since Karl
decided for a self-defence, hasn't many hopes. Anyway, if there's a new hearing
for the murder case, he said he might hire an attorney thanks to the money
we collected so far, and his mother's help (who would ask for a loan or such),
because it's just one hearing and not a trial (I didn't understand it well).
But after the court's decision he still have to wait for a reply from Judge
Murguia regarding his release from the solitary confinement.
He send you all a big kiss, and me too
Daniela
|
Info
exhibition in Genoa
SIGNS OF FIGHT AND INJUSTICE Exhibition: Drawings and poems from the death row 5 - 11 December, Biblioteca Berio, V.le Fieschi GENOA 10:00 - 1:00 p.m.; 4:30 - 6:30 p.m. Sunday, closed |
9/10/02
Hi all. Sadly I have a very bad piece of news: Karl wrote that the court rejected
his appeal for the commutation of the 20 years sentence. He will appeal but
he says he has few hopes because an attorney should appeal, not him. He hopes
for Marzia, or someone else to find out an attorney. He sent me his 3 cases'
status. It's typewritten because his writer is in a bad way, yet it still
works! Now I cannot copy, nor scan it, but let me know if you need it and
I will send it. I always hope for the best.
Bye, Betta
11.10.02
Karl writes:
"I finished a motion for reconsideration (from my petition that was just
denied), that I pray will give Marzia/Daniela time to find a lawyer to file
the federal appeal brief. (This is probably my last "good" chance...)"
I do actually hope! I wait and say hello to you all.
Betta
P.S. Here is Karl's status.
18.10.02
Hi all,
I wrote to Billie Lee (Kar's mom. Editor's note) asking her if she knows how
much money Karl needs for an attorney. That's what she replied:
"Daniela; I will call an attorney and find out just what it would cost
to retain him. The problem, when I called before the cost was $10,000. That
is a lot of money. When I paid out $5000 for Karl the first time, it was very
frustrating. That is just the retainer fee. Once they get the money, if no
more money comes in they do not try as hard. Let me call around and see what
I can do. Please give me at least 3 weeks. I am working a lot, many hours
and Saturday, and Sundays."
In his latest letter Karl said he saved $5000 dollars, instead to Marzia said
he saved $2500 dollars, so the thing is confused. I'll ask Karl for more news,
maybe he will call on the 23rd, and we wait for more info from Billie as well.
For now we hope to sell something in Genoa. As to the books to bring, copies
of Five Things are over. If someone has some copy
let me know. Luckily we still have many copies of the Tritacarne
- I will bring them to Genoa, there's no problem. Another little chance to
help Karl might be a US crime expert who Marzia knows. He accepted to view,
free for now, Karl's papers Marzia is sending him.
As to myself, I'm saving some money for Karl (if I don't spend anything for
his collect calls).
Bye everybody,
Daniela
31.10.02
Sadly a letter of Karl of the 23 October informs me thet he was put "on
restriction", they took his typewriter, and other things. That day he
had to call Daniela, but he didn't, maybe they prevent him from calling her.
Bye Betta
2.11.02
Hi all,
Betta said Karl was put "on restriction", they took his typewriter,
etc. That's because they found out he has a site dedicated to him, he wrote.
They want to punish him and put him on "disciplinary report" because
he has some friends helping him. The Genoa exhibition may be a good chance
to launch a petition, and collect a good amount of signatures. I'd like Marzia
to remind me the addresses we can send the petition to, and to write a text,
Let's hope for the best.
A kiss from Daniela
P.S. Here enclosed you can find a mail that an Amnesty activist sent to me,
explaining the Internet issue.
US ATTEMPT TO BAN
ANTI DEATH PENALTY WEB SITES
from Punto-Informatico http://www.punto-informatico.it
of the 17 October 2002
American prisons; Internet
censured
An Arizona law bans the sites publishing news about the death penalty and
the mistreatments to the inmates who now are threatened of retaliation.
You can read the article in Italian at http://punto-informatico.it/p.asp?i=41027,
and in English here.
For those who want to join us in this new outcry, and send letters supporting
Karl, here's some address:
| Director
Terry L. Stewart Arizona Department Of Correction 1601 West Jefferson Street, Phoenix, Arizona 85007, USA |
The
Honorable Jane Hull Governor of Arizona 1700 West Washington Phoenix, Arizona 85007, USA |
| Warden
Jeffrey A. Hood ASPC - Eyman P.O. Box 3500 Florence, AZ 85232-3500, USA |
Civil
Rights Division U.S. Department of Justice 950 Pennsylvania Aye, NW Washington. D.C. 20530, USA |
| Deputy
Warden Blaine H. Marshall ASPC - Eyman P.O. Box 3500 Florence, AZ 85232-3500, USA |
To:
U.S. District Court 230 North 1st Avenue Phoenix, Arizona, USA |
| Special
Rights of Institutionalized Persons Act - Special Litigation Section P.O. Box 66400 Washington. D.C. 20035-6400, USA |
6.11.02
Hi,
Karl wrote. He's still on report because he's on Internet. As to that he sent
me a letter that the web masters, must pass onto Director Stewart to see if
we can make the thing fairer. I attached the letter here.
I will send it to Stewart as well, as Multimage
member. As to that Karl confirmed his next books must have a pen name. As
to the rest, he's very busy with his appeals and his projects.
Bye, Daniela
12.11.02
From Stefy:
I received a letter
from Karl dated Wednesday 30 October. It's handwritten because they turned
off the power, so he cannot use the typewriter. But now I read again that
Betta wrote they took his typewriter on 23 October. Well, I don't know, Karl
contradicts himself, he looks confused. Sure, his writing shows these days
tension. He writes overexcitedly, hastily, sometimes his thoughts crowd disorderly.
Besides his hand aches, and I very hardly made out what sometimes were real
scribbles. All that is painful, and I think he'll have to bear it till the
bitter end, till 2013, if he stays alive and clear-minded. Sometimes I have
scruples in making petitions for him, or talking about his situation, because
he's not so bad as the most inmates they talk about on the net; he no longer
risks a death sentence; he's not seriously ill; he has a family, and many
friends. Anyway he suffers too. This solitary confinement, and this daily,
steady stream of abuses is awful. He doesn't deserve all that, even if he
were guilty. We're almost in 2003, still 10 years of all that...I beg you
who are reading me, do you stay by him, write to him, do you let him feel
he's not alone. If you don't want, or cannot do anything else, do you write
to him at least, keep on writing, sending pictures, tapes with your voice...don't
you forget about him.
Here's his letter.
Dear Stefy :-)
Are you good? I hope! Please send my regards to Olivier, and all my friends.
Thank you!
I'm not too good; I was just put on restriction because of the website - Prison
Pen Pals and others; they said I am in communication with a computer
server, or "on the Internet" even though I did not contact anyone!
:-[ I have appealed, but Blaine Marshall denied it. Now I appealed to Stewart
- but he will deny it too! :-( Oh well! So I have no power, nothing for 30
days. Never mind, yet it's bad. They're supposed to be taking my typewriter,
but so far they haven't. I don't know when. My typewriter barely works anyway.
:-[
I have finished 3 sections of the material for the commercial site - but I
must change my name, and invent a character and scenario that is the same
and true to this hell. [...] No, I don't have power, but I can use my neighbour's,
but it's very dangerous. I just use it for some very important thing, and
at the right time. It's hard and dangerous, but soon they will take my typewriter
away. :-(
-----------------------
Sexy dreams -
-------------------------
Thursday. Don't you have money for a new
computer? Shit! Do you use the money you saved for me! I need you to have
a new computer. How is Multimage? Do they have computers? Sure, haven't they?
Ah, my hand aches.
Good news - Terry Stewart is gone! Resigned or fired! Maybe we'll be released!
On Monday the Koch decision will come down in the 9th circuit Court of Appeals
- deciding if I stay in the hole, or go out!! Yes, I probably won't have success
without an attorney, but I must keep fighting/trying for that 01% chance -
so I fight! Well, I'm down to a trim fit, at 189 lbs. :-[ I'm always hungry
now.
Friday. What a tragedy in S. Giuliano
di Puglia! So many children dead! I was shocked to see so many perish. Now
that's where these fucking politicians should put some money - into safe buildings!
:-(
Well, tomorrow...
Saturday. Hello my dear! I hope you have
a great week! (I will be getting shook down - and my typewriter & stuff
(?) taken) :-( but never mind! Tell all my friends I said hello and send my
love! A big hug for Stefy! And a kiss for you :-) With love and a smile. KLG
"Dated...02?"
It is 10 p.m. as I test the wires for spark (The fumes of oil-based paint
haunt my night)
Why can't I get power from the light? Bastards - pricks - cocksuckers. they
do this to keep THIS from becoming words to paper, to people, to wisdom. Damn!
Shocked again - I think they heard the "zzz!". My flesh burning.
(Your eyes are the only thing that can save me. Come back in time...come back.
I remember every word you said.)
Here they are. "Fuck! Fuck!"
....................
Suckers! Can't catch me today! Back to the plastic ? - I should say, such
thick plexiglass that I must drill through using a contraband needle I've
hidden for years in my skin - to try to get power to the typewriter. God knows
they'll come for that too!
Then what do I do? (She haunts me with her unsaid love, seen in her eyes,
pupils dilated. Flushed cheeks and lips...)
6:30 p.m. San Giuliano di Puglia. 26 children, 1 teacher :-( Mother fuckers!
I'm going crazy,
but I feel everything so much.
(All those children and life extinguished, I cry in my pillow, but will never
admit that I have).
Is this hell then,
to feel everything,
but not be allowed to change it?
(What's the date today? is it night or day?)
"zzz!"
15.11.02
Here's the latest updates on Karl, from a letter of his to Betta of the 7
November. He applied to the court to have his typewriter back, and a new recorder.
He hopes for a positive reply. Also, they once again reduced their meals,
that lately are always cold.
21.11.02
[...]Today, I'm no longer on restriction.
I have electricity - but no typewriter. They denied my appeal regarding "being
on Internet". I sent all my papers to the "Arizona Civil Liberties
Union". We'll see. I have done the drawings, and much of the text, but
I need a typewriter to finish it... :-( But I'm sending you what I have. You
can use it for donations or something for me. But use another name because
the pigs punished me, and also retailated against me. Stewart no longer works
here, but Marshall is the same! :-( Cowards! [...] My hand, and my wrist begin
to hurt. Even now I must stop cuz I can't read my own writing. Buona Notte!
:-) KLG
6.12.02
Hi all,
in Genoa there's the exhibition of some US inmates' drawings. Several inmates,
through their committees in Italy, like us with Karl, take part in it with
beautiful drawings. At the opening there were about 30 people. Five people
made a speech; me about Karl, Amnesty International, the St.Egidio Community,
Gabry about her friend Tony, and e Mauro Dispenza who helps many inmates.
We had a very good time. I met Elisabetta, Gabry and Mauro who went into action
to help Karl as well.
Love, Daniela (Editor's note: See the exhibition's promo banner on this page
by clicking here)
12.12.02
No
more Blaine Marshall, no more Terry Stewart. They did their little petty action
against me, then they left! Like cowards and purse-snatchers! Okay, I'm waiting
for my release, for food, etc. you know. I'm still waiting for the Court to
make its ruling. [...] They said I must tell my friends to quit making the
web site: I said - I can't! Thet's not good - and suck it! Don't worry about
me, just go on as you do. Thank you for your letters to Blaine Marshall. I
was on restriction, but never mind, I do push ups and read more.
I got a little food, but it's not good yet cause the Xmas store isn't supplied
with enough food. It's the same old story, anyway it's better now.
[...] Remember, don't you quit making the web site. They are just idiots
16.12.02 INITIAL SUCCESS IN CCADP LAWSUIT AGAINST ARIZONA...
Good news today 16.12.02! A federal judge handed down an injunction against enforcement of the law attempting to ban Arizona prisoners from appearing on websites! Click here to read the message by the Canadian Coalition Against The Death Penalty, and here to read the precedents.
20.12.02 I have food, but "they" are not selling us the healthier type of food - e.g. pasta, stew, beef, beans, tortillas, cheese, fish (tuna); or what they do is give me 1 or 2 pkgs, because the prison did not order enough for all as usual. [...]
I'm eating now. Spaghetti. They're bad, the meat sauce is watery and with no tomatoes. Anyway it's good with food. I'm no longer hungry. [...]
The other day the cops were "playing around" and sprayed gas in our "pod" (living area) of cells - now I have a cough I can´t get rid of! The "CS tear gas" makes your lungs raw and therefore susceptible to infections, etc. I hope that´s all it is - just a cough. One does not want to be sick in the "hole" - nor choke, nor have an asthma attack: why? Because you will die before they get you to a doctor - if ever. [...]
Well, it seems my Judge (Murguia) in the civil case for human rights and release from the solitary confinement, came to SMU II in the past two weeks. An inmate told me that she said: "Do the inmates stay in their cells all day long?" The Warden replied: "Yes." Then she said: "That's all I need to see." (As if that was enough cruelty). So that's great news, if it is true. In prison, we say: "Believe nothing you hear, and half of what you see. We'll see.
29.12.02
I'm
not good because I don't have my
"allergy pills"
because my prescription ran out and now I am red and itching all over. I get
these "odd" headaches. It´s the water, or the clothes/bedding
that I´m allergic to, or onion powder in food or something in the food?
Non lo so, because they won´t pay for the full test!!! It´s expensive!
[...]
Well, an officer, Joseph Strack, put me on disciplinary for nothing, but because
I have sued him as a violator of human and civil rights. This is the 3rd time
this year. [...]
They (cops) are shaking down again. Probably
tonight... [...]
Sunday morning. They are now here. To shakedown. That is my Sunday morning.
[...] after: it's over. This time was not bad.
11.1.03 How am I? Not too bad.
[...] Joseph Strack (40-50), is always
trying to pester me, harassing me and making up reasons to write me up. I
ignored him, but [...] I will get a write up for something that doesn't exist
[...] I deal with this kind of psychological cruelty, [...] Struck is "the
worst devil, and he likes it."
